It’s been a long time…(a few revelations) August 20, 2010
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Gosh! It’s been a long time since I updated this blog. It was like, what, January? and today is August so, yeah. hehe But anyway, I finally had the chance to update. 
It’s been such a crazy busy schedule since there were a lot of changes and updates within our process. But still, I wanna thank God for sustaining me, even though I had to adjust again to almost everything.
Ai, nga pala… Thank you Ralph! thank you, and thank you again for giving so much patience when I was like bombarding you almost everyday for my SS check. hehe :) Thank you for your patience and thank you for the follow-ups. I know you’re very busy but thank you. Now you can be at peace again. jejejejeje
Now on to the update!
Some of my friends were asking me why did I stop attending church. I didn’t answer the question until I finally decided to share my reason behind my absence. (Anyway God knows what are my faults and what are not) Here are some revelations:
@ I got promoted but I wasn’t happy
- I got promoted as a leader (front liner) but I never felt genuine happiness after the position. Honestly? I only became a monster. I left everything unbalanced and I only ruined my life, my job/career and my relationship with God. So I decided to leave everything, even the glory of promotion in exchange of my peace.
@ I got stressed and burned out
- Honestly, I got stressed with everything. My life was a mess. I got traumatized and I got overwhelmed with the tasks, responsibilities, duties, etc!. It even came to a point that I really wanna give up because my mind was full of stress and worries. I was not in a balanced state.
@ Too much expectations, no considerations.
- I understand the fact that a leader must be accountable on everything they were held responsible to but that doesn’t mean it can be so unrealistic. There were too much expectations from the leadership but didn’t give enough considerations on my part. It was clear that I work as a call center agent given an erratic schedule, but they treat me like a full-time leader in the ministry. I don’t know on what part do they not understand, but it was a hell on my part.
@ They compared us from leaders whom they sent away
- At the first place, I knew that it wasn’t genuine about the position. In short, “panakip butas lang ako”. But when I failed and haven’t met their expectations, they compared us from those who did everything perfect for them. Bottomline is, just to say that the church is still succesful and growing, gagawing panakip butas ung ibang tao dun sa mga nawala. Then pag may kapalpakan ung mga pinalit nila, ico2mpare dun sa mga leaders at workers na nawala. Sasabihin; ” Buti pa nung andito cila mas maayos pa naman”.
@ There was no genuine compassion but an issue of a matter of material
- The leadership has no genuine compassion for their members. What they do is that as long as they can get something and benefit from you and from your talents and blessings, you are very useful to them. If not, your useless. You’re just a matter of material. Pag may kailangan lang dun ka naaalala. Like my mom. If they need something from her (financial, sponsorship, assistance, etc!) They will call and text her all the time. After that, galit galit n2man. But when she visits the church, she was like nobody to them. They even insult her. Then they call and text her to ask for money? That’s Bull S*t!
- I never expected that my life would be perfect because I know myself and I know my weaknesses. I know my flaws, my mistakes, my failures, and God knows how I want him to change those things. Sino ba ang ayaw sa pagbabago?
