Zha
I am nothing but a servant of God. A dirt, trash, garbage, wind, dust, filthy human being. That’s what I am but God changed me and gave a new life for me. Let me share with you guys what God has made me to be.
If there is one word or an object that will describe who I am? I guess that would be a TREE. I based my answer in John 15:1-8 (The Vine and the Branches). Jesus is the gardener of my life. Whenever I let God work and move in my life, He bears fruit in me for the purpose of His greater glory. But sometimes, he prunes the branches in me that causes delay for his purpose in my life. There may be times that for a season I have no fruit at all, But there are also times that I am fruitful for his purposes. But one thing is for sure, my solid ground and foundation is the good soil which is Jesus Christ. For my loved ones, I resemble my self as a tree because I am already planted within their hearts. I can be a shelter and a helping hand to them, whenever they need someone to relay on. Once a tree is planted, it will stay there forever unless you cut it off but the roots will still remain.
-Just a simple person. Because “God Honors Simplicity and Humility”. She loves to read, write, listen to music and play the piano. She loves music that she has this intimate passion to learn more for the Glory of God. She doesn’t usually go out and do window shopping, strolling, etc. She’s the typical person who stays at home and prefer to do her hobbies instead.
- In the secular aspect, She works in the Call Center Industry at Sutherland Global Services at ClarkField Pampanga. This is her second call-center experience. She works with JP Morgan Chase, Mortgage Banking, planing to apply for a higher post (Well, I’m still praying for that) ^^
Interests?
- As you can see, I love cats ^^ (Meow) I also love dogs however I really admire cats because they are too independent and mysterious. Like I said, I love to READ a lot! especially Christian novels and short stories. I love reading Darlene Zschech’s “Extravagant Worship” and Rick Warren’s “The Power to Change your Life”. I also love reading leadership books (John C. Maxwell, and J.Oswald Sanders) Before when I was not a believer, my favorite hang out at school is the Library. I read a lot of novels, fictions, epics, etc! Reading books refreshes my mind and It gives me extra relaxation and reduces my stress… I collect a lot of books and put them in my mini- library at home.
How God changed me…
- At the tender of 6 years old, I began to be aware of pornographic materials and visual aids and it created a big impact in my life. I was known for being “suicidal” because we have a lot of problems within the family and I felt that I was not needed and loved at all. I was too emotional and I was full of self-pity and insecurity that caused me to do such things that will harm me a lot. Everyday, I carry my best friend which was a small knife and tiny blades in which I use to hurt and injure myself (literally) just to show them how painful I am for being an outcast. When I was 9 years old, I met Jesus and accepted Him as my Personal Savior. My first church was CEMI but a year after, we attended the JIL Angeles Outreach Church (not a chapter yet). I joined the Tambourine/Dance Ministry, but because I was just a child I didn’t really understand the real essence of serving God. That was also the very first time that I have experienced walking away and turning away from God because of certain divisions that happened to our church. The thing that I will never forget is that when my mom and my brother went to Manila to watch over my sick aunt, I was left at home with my dad and he molested and tried to rape me. And for that , I hated him so much that I wanted to kill him with my own hands. I hated him because he always wanted to manipulate and control me and with him, I have no freedom at all. I also hated his family, my grandmother, grandfather, etc! And It really pissed me of bearing his last name and carrying his blood. When I was 14, I came back to the church but because I wasn’t satisfied with my life, I left again and searched happiness in my life. 2 years after, I came back to the arms of God and that was the first time experiencing total and absolute freedom after attending the Youth Encounter Retreat. From there, I committed to the ministry and became of the leaders in the KKB Ministry. But the problem is that whenever I get hurt, I walk away and turn away from the people who hurt me. My journey with God was a “come and go” so I was most likely similar to Jonah. “walking away from God” and the Prodigal Son. But as I grow deeper with Christ, I realized that whatever those reasons are, they are not valid enough from turning away from God. I can never forget what Darlene Zschech said in her book “Extravagant Worship”. That whenever we get hurt and face problems, we should draw more closer to God instead of walking away from Him. That would deepen the level of our worship and our love to Him.
- And so, God changed me…From being a trash, he gave a meaning to my life. He gave me all the reasons to live and to survive. Before, I was full of self-pity, but now I am full of God’s love and confidence. He gave me the strength to forgive people who have hurt me and rely on his power and glory. I became a worship leader, pulpit minister, and I was given the opportunity to serve God with a great calling and a purpose. He destroyed all my sins and blessed me with a humbling talent to be used in His ministry.
One pastor said… If you have the fullness of life, you will have no reason to complain at all. Because the fullness of life is a life connected with God although you know that we are not worthy of HIs love and of being sons and daughters of the Most High. Now let me share you one of the songs that represent my life… Do you know the song “Who Am I?” by Casting Crowns? it’s such a lovely song. It reminds me of my nothingness and worthlessness before God, and he is the only one who gives meaning to my life.
Sabi nga ni Rev. Alexander O. Garcia (Director for National Operations JIL Worldwide, JIL Pampanga Supervising/Head Pastor)
“Lupa, alikabok, usok, basura, basahan at dumi sa daan.. Yun tayo sa harapan ng Panginoon”
So there’s so much to be thankful for and nothing to complain for. God Bless!!! Love you al!!! ^^
Who Am I?
(Casting Crowns)
Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt…
Who am I, that the bright and morning star, would choose to light the way, for my ever wondering heart..
Not because of who I am, but because of what you’ve done…
Not because of what I’ve done, but because of who you are…
I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind
Still you, hear me when I’m calling
Lord you catch me when I’m falling
And you told me who I am, I am yours….
Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who am I? That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain, And calm the storm in me…Not because of who I am, but because of what you’ve done…
Not because of what I’ve done, but because of who you are…
I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind
Still you, hear me when I’m calling
Lord you catch me when I’m falling
And you told me who I am, I am yours….
